How Do I Get There?
I'm having one of those mornings where I am overwhelmed by the amount of things that I don't yet know how to do.
The gulf between where I am and where I would like to be seems massive...and then there's this situation where I know that things I do today are seeds planted for ten years from now and blah blah blah.
And I'm doing all of these THINGS, many of which are useful and productive, but so often I just feel like they are just the same things over and over again, and that I'm not challenging myself enough to do better. I make endless revolutions around the same spot in this labyrinth, and the way forward doesn't seem apparent.
Don't get me wrong, I am immensely grateful for where I am and the people in my life who think what I do is worthy of spreading and worthy of *gasp* being paid for. I know how far I've come in the last 5 years since I started all of this.
The hard thing is that I also know where I would like to be, and it may take another decade at least to get there.
But what is the next step? There is no guidebook to the creative life, and anyone who tries to tell you that they have ANY idea of what they're doing is probably making up 95% of that advice. Every creative path is different, because every artist is a universe.
All they can actually do is tell you what worked for them. There's no way of knowing if it will actually work for you.
5 years ago I picked up a camera and started photographing things I thought were worthy of capturing. 5 years from now I want to still be doing that, but I would like to have my own studio in New England, I would like to be regularly published in art magazines, I would like to actually be able to put on a solo show of my work in actual dedicated art gallery.
Furthermore, I would like to be in a place financially where I can hire a team of people to make this work – specifically the people like Arden Barlow who have been with me practically from the beginning.
At the moment I keep banging my head against the wall, because no matter the countless hours of effort I feel like I've plateaued, and I'm not sure what to do about it.
This morning, in an effort to do something, anything, I bought a CreativeLive class, but I have no idea if that will make any difference, but I have to do something. Maybe some speck of essential information will stand out enough to snap me into forward motion. But it's unlikely.
So, until I figure something out, I will keep doing what I'm doing. Maybe the more I look at my surroundings, the sooner I'll see the way forward.
© 2017 Joey Phoenix